because i cant hold on any longer.

all the feelings that i've been holding back for the past two months. i cant do this any longer. this thing really pierces my heart. you cant see, can you? how much i like you. and i hate myself for acting so sometimes... sometimes, i feel like the only person who can possibly love me after knowing what i am on the inside is Jesus.

i love you too, Jesus. but now i'm so confused, i dont know what i'm doing. or why i feel the way i do. or why this matters so much.